NOW
November 1, 2011
ME: i am broken friend, over all our Lord is showing me
FRIEND: hard but a good thing
ME: yes. Need to get to DOING. Still eager for babes (conception/adoption AND foster care)
FRIEND: are you getting started on adoption stuff?
ME: {http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Df6apm8uD24 picture his expression at the end on me as I just sat there staring at her question on the screen}
I had no answer to why we hadn’t started yet. What was I waiting for?
I wrote down all the fears/thoughts/hesitations swirling around in my head.
{insight: Same reasons people put off ‘having kids’ can be applied to adoption and to fostering} Much was revealed.
If you love me, you will obey what I command. John 14:15
Let me interject here. Fill you in a bit. We’ve been married 2.5 years. We do not prevent conception. {http://www.familyunplanning.com/index.html } Actually, we are quite intentional regarding conception! We are eager to be with child IN ADDITION to a growing desire for fostering and adoption. They aren’t interchangeable. They are each separate entities. Not replacements for one or another. Above all we want His will. Yes. Even above our desires.
November 8, 2011
Met with dear friend. Shared. Prayed
Shared with husbend that night over dinner and he is on board!
But what is my focus? Goal? I am made in His image for His GREATEST glory. My responsibility is to step out in obedience. I do not know how any of this will work out. To man/world it probably looks impossible.
November 10, 2011
Get a text from friend about an adoption thing at a local church this Sunday
For even the Son of Man did not come to be served, but to serve, and to give his life as a ransom for many. Mark 10:45
November 11, 2011
Read this in my devo; “God’s command is, “Take now,” not later. It is incredible how we debate! We know something is right, but we try to find excuses for not doing it immediately. If we are to climb to the height God reveals, it can never be done later--it must be done now. And the sacrifice must be worked through our will before we actually perform it.” (read more) http://freerepublic.com/focus/f-religion/2805928/posts
BAM!
I stood there-doing the dishes-laughing and smiling-bleary eyed!
It doesn’t stop! I thought.
I also wondered how many others are in this same place of needing to do NOW.
A little while later I was checking email and saw Tatiana’s name and was reminded about this series. Last I had wrote her I did not know what our Lord wanted me to share. {Not for lack of options mind you!} Now I know. And here I write.
On my walk today I was hit with this;
guard against thinking that if i didn't have or did have (fill in the blank) it would be easier to live, serve, obey the Lord.
Somewhere along the line my focus shifted to fostering (as I affectionately call it).
December 1, 2011
-Recognized AND acted on the prompting of the Holy Spirit.
-Called “Foster Care” dude again
-In house meeting scheduled for 12/5
Learned via bible study about the difference between knowledge and wisdom. How wisdom is applied knowledge. (how) Am I applying the knowledge of our Lord?
December 5, 2011
Meeting is canceled due to personal emergency on his end.
Praying for him.
And this "thou shalt not be a victim, thou shalt not be a perpetrator, but, above all,
thou shalt not be a bystander." - Yehuda Bauer
December 12, 2011
In house meeting rescheduled for 12/16
Stop over thinking. Stop planning for ‘some day.’ Stop envisioning. If our Lord is prompting you to ‘do’, then get to DOING!
We have to stop waiting for the time to be right per us. Again, if our Lord is prompting you, then begin now. Get your ideas (convictions, promptings) and intentions out of your head and turn them into action.
Love is demonstrative.
We don’t have to have everything perfect -per our definition of perfection- to begin.
Just start.
December 16, 2011
Very informative meeting! Gots us some paperwork to get started on, some finger printing to do and we are starting us some classes January 14th!
How will you start today?!
*Other resources our Lord lead me to during this time:
Make a THEN/NOW list. One column THEN and one NOW. Write under the THEN column what it is you are thinking about for the future. What you are wanting to happen? Envisioning? Then prayerfully go over each one, bringing it before the Lord, sifting it in an effort to see if any are of you and not of the Lord. Then under your NOW column write what you can do NOW to affect the THEN! Be specific. Then DO it!
I have so many emotions as I read this...will share with you when I'm not late for work.
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